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Tuesday, October 26, 2004

Its been long since i have last updated.. lots of things happening to me for these few days.. good and bad hehe

now v confused abt a lot of things.. all my thoughts and emotionals all mixed up already
haikx sux man

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Wednesday, October 20, 2004

I have good news.. for myself at least.. just now i went to msg a fren, eddy or cappy. Got to know from him that he and his gal Candy, just got back together. Guess although his career is impt to him, he found out he can handle both and really wanna be with her. I am really happy for her.. seriously.. coz i know she can relate to what is happening to me now.. Although now that she has her happy life back, I am 100% behind her supporting her and be real happy. Well if i can't be happy, at least she is.. Good for you girl to be able to be with the one u love.

Today went to sing KTV with sharon.. sang a few new songs.. Sang Yue Guang.. well its the only chinese song i can sing properly, as well as Liang Jing Ru usual songs.. haha well hehehee... Well i shall learn the more popular chinese songs as recommanded and sing.. so i wun be left out in future.. tho my chinese pronounciation sux and my knowledge of reading chinese is limited but its not going to stop me!

well we sang An Jing by Jay Chou. I sing le i feel v sad.. coz the last sentence says something like.. I will learn to let go.. becoz i really love you so.. Den upon singing tt sentence, i feel all @#$@#$ again..

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Sunday, October 17, 2004

Its been days since i blogged..

well yesterday went out for a while.. with the usual gang of friends..

Got to know a new friend. All thanks to Calvin hor.. and Sharon too.. haha coz of the movie tt day.. Well well its surprising but duh it happened... u guys know what i am saying..

Went walk walk and shop shop today.. Saw da Gundam Wing figurine.. but he told me he dun want it le.. ooh well.. too bad den tot i could surprise him or something..

I am thinking too much.. Can't help it..

I was telling a fren how much i wanna settle down with someone i love.. and whose tt? i dunno.. old liao... must have career and a good relationship.. also must be v supportive of my love one's career and feelings..

ooh god.. please take this pain away from me... u dunno how much i am suffering... I have never experience this kind of pain before.. and to think it is actually for my own good? i wish.

I pricked my finger today.. a lot of blood.. i scare myself even haikx.. silly me i guess

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Tuesday, October 12, 2004

today i walked past the mrt exit behind wisma.. den something came up to my mind again..
on 5/9/2004, something happened there... i asked him a qns.. does he want me to be his mrs cheong.. he said yes.. and ask me not to leave him..
and now this happens.. sobx..

i cried like fuck again.. i cried till i vomit..

wtf is wrong with me man..

today i did it again.. i managed to piss him off once again.. I damn pro right? everything i do is wrong lo.. EVERYTHING.. all my fault again.. sighx.. sorry..

as days past, my health is getting worst.. I can feel it myself even but i can't seem to stop it.. of coz i am worried but there are other pains tt cuts deeper into my heart..

baby come back.. won't u please come back.. hold me tight.. forever....

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Monday, October 11, 2004

hmm.. i woke up today and went to the doctor to get MC. ooh well after which danz wanted to meet me up for movie but due to unforeseen circumstances, i am unable to go.

Morning i sms Uncle Vincent(kenny's daddy) to congratulate him on striking 4D yesterday.. haha wished him more luck and wealth to come also.. and he gave me a reply, "thank you my dear" and that really made my day.. he never failed to make me feel warm and comfy as if i was a part of the family when i was with kenny.. And till now with replies like this makes me feel blessed all over again.. Well actually i really love his family a lot.. everyone of them.. from his grandma, his sis, to his niece. When they have family gathering i will try to chat up and play with most of them also. I really miss all of them a lot.. When we first got together, i know his a v fillial son and wants to take care of his parents and live with them, well i respect him a lot for that and grew to love his parents as i want to take care of them together with him.. maybe some might think i am silly eh to think abt such things at this age but hey... there is always a dating period right.. at least i know what i want in life.

Judging from things and from what i heard i guess he is really stressed out due to work.. Hope he gets better soon.. and not overworked himself too much..

hmm.. anyway i just read something interesting today.. its.. sensual dancing classes.. in the class, you will learn:
- how to dress up, what to wear
- how to move and dance in the sensual and erotic way
- how to show off and learn 'seductive clothing removal' (striptease la!)
- how to act and pose as an elegant and graceful lady yet seductive
- how to treat your partner, give surprises and seduce him all over again
- dance with confidence and feel comfortable and joyous about yourself
- stretching for extreme flexibility
- body isolation and floorwork

sensual dance is designed for women to empower thermselves by learning to let go of their negative body image and getting in touch with their erotic and sensual inner goddness. this class is for all women who want to express their sensuality and share it with their partner.

haha got this from some forum.. when people read this it might sound slutty but it sounds quite fun to me.. can hang ard to know more girls also.. seems fun.. waiting for some other girls to form a grp so we can go together. Ooh well i know i know.. got no partner to surprise to but i am doing this for myself what.. maybe can go there learn a new moves.. lose some weight also.. bleah...

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This is for you..

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That’s why i need you to hear

this expresses all that i feel and wanna say man.. rocks right haha.. true enough i am not a perfect person but i know deep in the heart is what is matters

er.. just spoke to daniel in msn just now.. I was telling him maybe one day he will get back with his girl.. and he was telling me maybe one day i might get back with kenny too.. i have to face da reality man.. daniel says maybe his job is making him all stressed out that's why he is being like this.. ooh well.. what can i do? nothing.. if his happier without me.. den i just have to let go.. i hold on to him he might find me irritating right? no matter how much it hurts.. he told me i have to move on.. i will try.. moving on with a heavy and broken heart that's all.. afterall its been 1 yr of sweet relationship we had.. i still love him a lot.. love him to bits.. ooh whateva..

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hmm.. Well i had a v v busy weekend man.. On friday, i met sharon for ktv.. we sang so much.. but i only managed to sing well at the last hour.. damn.. lolx.. den after ktv, we so siao we decided to watch midnight.. yawnx.. i reached home at 3am ok.. I am so tired..

woke up at 7am for work.. after work ends at 1 i went KTV with my colleagues.. danz came along with me as he told me its his bday on sunday and ask me if i wanna go out for dinner with him.. well of coz.. we've been friends for so long haha.. Well he still sings as good tho seriously.. kinda miss those days he sings to me over the phone..

Well he surprised me with a nice dinner in a cable car! wow nice right.. sky dinning lolx.. i was worried i would get kinda sick after that tho.. haha but overall the dinner's great.. had a great time with a great view too.. hehe as u can see from da pics below..

tts so sweet of him eh?

anyway some of my friends approach me to ask me why i wanna slim down for him.. erm.. nope.. its not for him and the surprise definitely ain't me slimming down.. i know kenny.. looks isn't a concern to him.. I am slimming down for myself man.. I wanna look good.. as for his surprise.. just wait and see eh? lolx..

anyway i was very sick sunday morning.. got fever.. vomit and whole body aching..
argh.. working again tml! see ya peeps

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this is daniel haha he look so happy right? of coz man! bday boy le..

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me in the cable car!

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This is the starter dish.. prawn salad with lobster soup.. yummy!

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Wednesday, October 06, 2004

Today is suppose to be a special day for me.. for us that is.. sighx..

if onli he remember.. and i can say happy anniversary to u my dearest..

i just went jogging just now.. it was very dark but i have to keep up with my plan..

I shall cont with my surprise for him.. lala love him lots..

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Tuesday, October 05, 2004

I'll be waiting for you.. here inside my heart.. i'm the one who wants to love you more...

I'll be here waiting.. meanwhile i have something special for him.. made by yours truely..

I'll just give him some time to think things thru.. since he wants some time...

hope everything's gonna be alright

*pray*

muakx

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i mess things up again..

all i can say is that i am sorry...

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Sunday, October 03, 2004

I woke up v early in the morning today.. spend a v happy morning and afternoon..
I've nv felt happier when i am with him tho its just for a little while.. I am so not like last time.. where by i will demand more time and attention.. just a little while will do.. but i was told some things that i do not want to hear.. and i have to accept the fact..

I've decided to go.. unless he make me stay.. its like i dun mind waiting.. if he tells me to wait.. i will.. tts how strong my love is for him..

Talked to ah ger today.. she made me cry.. not that she bully me but its coz she said one thing to me.. "god takes away something frm u nt cuz he wans u to suffer, but becuz he has something even better installed for u ...u may nt see it nw bt in future u will realise it was for ur own gd." I know what she mean by that.. but i am contented with what i have with him.. i really do.. he told me he has no confident to be a good bf.. but den again i do not think i am a good gf too.. but i have to pluck up all my courage to let him know how much i wanna still be with him..

She also told me "wat ever u do...wat ever it take watever ur decision u can count on me... i will be there... even if u choose to wait for him i'll support u alrite?" Thanks babe.. everyone is telling me to give up but no one actually know how much i still wanna wait for him.. call me silly but if u are my fren u should know i have never love someone more den i love him... all of u can see the happiness in my eyes everytime i talk abt him.. he brightens up my life..

I sound pathetic i know... but den again.. haikx...

I also need to confess something.. through out all of these.. i have hurt someone in the process.. thats alvin.. i am sorry.. but i dun think anyone can replace kenny in my heart.. its not u are not good enough for me or whatever.. its just that no one is as good as kenny.. Kenny told me if a better one comes along the way, go for it.. but after much consideration.. I have never felt happier with anyone but him.. so i wish u go back to her.. please.. give her a chance.. as i always say now is the yellow ribbon campaign.. everyone deserves a second chance... why not her.. I need a second chance but was not given one.. i dun wanna see another person ending up like me.. I know people can change.. coz i did.. she may too..

I wish to be given a second chance too.. I wish you luck.. wish me luck too...

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