its upsetting.. i cried again..
dun wanna say why but sighx..
love my sis a lot..
must be guai ok?
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I do things to make people hate me.. ok maybe not everyone
my form of concern and care is poison to others..
i hate myself
No one can stand me
my feelings are so hurt it sux..
no one spared a tot for how i feel instead..
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Its a miracle but even myself i am not sure of this qns.. I thought to myself abt this too but i simply can't get myself to agree on anything..
I guess its just him i suppose.. nv have i loved someone so deeply.. it hurts but i know i can't do a thing as i know i meant nth to him already..
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Spend Friday afternoon with my dear Sharon.. We went shopping and had a v full lunch cum dinner.. hehe I bought a new adiddas sling bag.. its nice and i am really happy tt i bought it..
Well i have been deciding which hp tt i wanna get.. I think i'll be getting Nokia 7610.. well its not coz kenny just bought it but its coz i liked it even before it was out.. One day i saw it in the papers and feel in love with it.. just tt kenny beat me into buying it first..
Ooh well at night i met my friend for a manicure session.. The manicurist, Celine who is also my fren, and her bf was telling me scary stories that they experience in Thailand. I got frightened.. It was 11.30pm already and i have to take the MRT alone to go and meet him.. Celine even scare me saying tt take train tt time becareful.. make sure the people ard me are humans and not others hor.. its like -.-" kaox.. i am alone le.. still have to take the train..
Thank god my suffering is not v long being alone in the train as he offered to pick me up at dover mrt.. phew..
The next morning, Sat, woke up and went out to PS for pasta mania and watched Ocean's Twelve.. Nice show but a bit the luan lo.. In the show, Mr Ocean aka George Clooney mentioned abt celebrating their (with Tess aka Julia Roberts) their Second "Third" Anniversary.. I was tearing already thinking if its possible for me to have a Second "One" yr anniversary with him and many more years to go.. Its possible i know as I am willing to work hard for tt
haha also we walked to parklane for some RotiBoy~ yummy.. we bought like the last few ones before they close.. guess they were having good business eh.. We also saw some familar faces.. ooh well..
I also brought up the topic to go on an overseas trip together.. Ooh well but i guess its realli difficult for him to apply leave.. I will understand coz sometimes its like tt.. but of coz i really wish that we could..
Spending time with him is always so happy.. time pass by very fast.. the next moment i know, i have to say goodbye to him already.. although i may not know when is the next time i will get to see him again but i am happy tt we did spend time together..
I just want a simple life, a simple bf with a simple happy relationship.. Guess i wun be having tt.. but i think i can wait.. i hope..
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This couple had been quarreling all their 40 over years of marriage, nothing ever seems to go right. They hang on because of their children, afraid that it might affect their up-bringing. Now, all their children have already grown up, have their own family, there's nothing else the old couple have to worry about, all they wanted is to lead their own life free from all these years of unhappiness from their marriage, so both agree on a divorce.
The lawyer was having a hard time trying to get the papers done, because he felt that after 40 years of marriage at the age of 70, he couldn't understand why the old couple would still wants a divorce. While they were signing the papers, the wife told the husband.."I really love you, but I really can't carry on anymore, I'm sorry.." "Its o.k, I understand.." said the husband.
Looking at this, the lawyer suggested a dinner together, just 3 of them, the wife thought, why not, since they are still gonna be friends...
At the dining table, there was a silence of awkwardness. The first dish was roasted chicken, immediately, the old man took the drumstick for the old lady. "Take this, its your favourite.." Looking at this, the lawyer thought maybe there is still a chance, but the wife was frowning when she answer. "This is always the problem, you always think so highly of yourself, never thought about how I feel, don't you know that I hate drumsticks?"
Little did she know that, over the years, the husband had been trying all ways to please her, little did she know that drumsticks was the husband's favourite. Little did he know that she never thought he understand her at all, little did he know that she hates drummsticks even though all he wants is the best for her.
That night, both of them couldn't sleep, toss and turn, toss and turn. After hours, the old man couldn't take it anymore, he knows that he still loves her, and he can't carry on life without her, he wants her back, he wants to tell her, he is sorry, he wanted to tell her "I love you". He
picks up the phone, started dialing her number. The phone never stops ringing. He never stops dialing.
On the other side, she was sad, she couldn't understand how come after all these years, he still doesn't understand her at all, she loves him a lot, but she just can't take it anymore....phone's ringing, she refuses to answer, knowing that its him... "What's the point of talking now that its over...I have asked for it and now I wanna keep it this way, if not I will lose face..." she thought. With the phone still ringing, she has decided to pull out the cord.
Little did she remember, he has heart problems...The next day, she received news that he had passed away...She rushed down to his apartment, saw his body, lying on the couch still holding on to the
phone. He had a heart attack when he was still trying to get through her phone line.
As sad as she could be, she will have to clear his belongings. When she was looking through the drawers, she saw this insurance policy, dated from
the day they got married, beneficiary of course is her. Together in that file, there's this note... "To my dearest wife, by the time you are reading
this, I'm sure I'm no longer around. I bought this policy for you. Though the amount is only $100k, I hope it will be able to help me continue my promise that I have made when we got married. I might not be around anymore. I want this amount of money to continue taking care of you, just like the way I will if I could have live longer...I want u to know I will always be around, by your side...I love you"
Tears flowed like river......
And the morale of the story is "When you love someone, let them know as you never know what will happen the next minute. Learn to build a life together...learn to love each other. For who they are..not what they are..."
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*sighx* often i wanna give the best to my other half but sometimes what i think is best is not best to him...
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I have been there for some people when they need me but i am wondering.. who is here for me when i need?
At times i feel tt i have no backbone.. once they need me, i will definitely be there.. when times goes by, no one appreciates it anymore..
Seriously wonder if i need someone, will he be there for me?
Maybe i am just not as lucky as some people.. in fact i may not even be considered lucky at all.. I am just troubled..
Do you feel tt at times people look down on you? Well shit happens but even i look down on myself.. dun ask why but i have my reasons to say all these.. Well just blames it that i am not good enough.. tts why this things happen..
When it comes to love, I am silly.. stupid in fact.. to be like that.. Watched tv just now.. got a girl say, "I wasted 2 yrs of my precious youth waiting for you." Makes me feel sad again as I maybe doing the same to myself.. but yet i choose to..
*sighx* why..
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I feel so lost and i dunno what to do.
Ever had the feeling that you wanna cry out but yet no tears come out, you wanna laugh but yet u can't.
I feel trap inside a box and i can't get out i dunno what to do.
when i go work everyday, its not the same old me anymore. I use to be Miss Sunshine whereby I would cheer people up and I bring life and joy to my colleagues.
This is so not me.
I admit.. i used to be spoiled and loves to throw tanthrums esp to the ones i love coz they care for me. but now, i can't even bring myself to do so..
Feeling terrible.. Just wanna cry it all out..
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I'm real happy today seriously..
I have not been this happy for a long time already..
Went to Bugis and suntec to shop shop for his phone..
Had a nice heart to heart talk with him about things tt are happening and about us too.
I can't say much.. blah..
Ooh ya BTW, to yanyan: hey girl.. I am really happy for u!!!!!!!! Good luck and Jia you.. me will always be here to support you! Muakx!
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This post is specially dedicated to me grandpa.
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hello people! new pics to show!
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pic taken on new yrs eve!
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bored.. on new yrs eve
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sighx.. its been long since i blogged, actually i have a lot of things kept deep inside but i just can't seem to let it out.. Guess i am no longer like wat i was.. things happen.. people change.. Feelings a lil weak now till i can't seem to type properly..
Its new yr's day.. was pretty rotten.. everything got cancelled.. ooh well not in much mood to celebrate anyway.. not when disasters are happening to our neighbouring countries.. thank god we are safe.. but who knows what might happen tml..
On the first of Jan, which is new yrs day, It was Lily's ROM day! Well she must be real excited and happy to be able to marry the guy she love.. how sweet.. i realli envy her a lot to be able to be with the one she love.. I can see she is real happy..
I went to Charlene's house warming.. ooh lucky girl.. she just got married and moved into her new place with her hubby in Bt Panjang. The place is real nice.. just nice for the 2 of them..
A new yr for me, a new start too. What do I want? I realli have no idea.. guess i just wish to be with the one i love.. and tt he loves me too.. I realli sacrifice a lot for love.. i really do.. and i nv did regret it.. not at all.. just as long as he is happy i'll do anything i guess.. even if he dun love me.. Not as if anyone cares but yea tts me..
I just wanna save money for myself.. for my future.. live a happy life.. get a flat.. 3 room or so or maybe even stay with my in-laws.. Find a guy who wants to spend his life with me.. Can't find den.. ooh well too bad for me loh.. I got to love my guy and also his family right.. I dun mind, as long as we all are happy.. and yup having kids did come across my mind.. hehe.. just a simple life will do.. No life is perfect but if we try, we can make things work.. I can't run away from reality anymore and keep on lying to myself things which are not true..
I have got to stand on my feet.. even if i can't find someone else, at least i still got myself to rely on. I have got to move on. I can't live in denial. I just got to be strong.
brb for more laterx.
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